One & Only

If you are a certain age or hold a certain title in life you'll understand this blog without thinking twice about it... If not, read it again in a few years and you will. People take on certain roles in our lives, friend-mother-sibling-ect... These very roles tell u alot abt who we are inside... And believe it or not tend to shape how we see the world around us.
I enjoy roles, I love wing a friend and daughter, and above all a mother. I must admit though, I've allowed roles of ppl around me to shape too many days in the past. I've been hurt by loss which made me scared to love, misguided by ppl's inability to be trusted, and tested by ppl I truly thought would Always love me... And I've learned one thing--- my love is defined by me and me only. No one can hurt me bad enough to deter the way I love the person who deserves me, no one can damage the relations I have with ppl who worm for my trust, and no one can say they had anything to do with stopping me from reaching my destiny... Which is to obtain and maintain a family that has been thru it all and still has meals on Sundays! Me Shuga & her father- I'm determined.
I can't stress it enough, the tests of life, the walk, the jog, the fast pace, then the cool down... The moment where you ponder on your actions and wonder what would have/ could have been different if you would have said this/ done that... What if? There is no ro for what if, and if there is you aren't thinking hard enough, loving hard enough... Bc if you are those moments don't get away that easy. You appreciate them enough to recognize them and STOP before losing it. Blessed; I was so blessed... But to know a love and lose a love makes you NEED that love... So to know there was only one like it--- heartbreaking. I wanna be that love to my family, my friends, above all my daughter... That's my role- what's yours? Be your kids one and only, be the one and only... Love hard, try hard, work hard, bc life is hard... And I've known alot of ppl, alot of faces, been alot of places... But we all have something in common... The ability to be someone's ONE AND ONLY.
Ppl who know me know I don't smile for much, not much exited me, and I'm pretty uptight... I'm a "work in progress"... But nothing could ever express how being a wife and mother make me feel on a daily basis. My smile isn't wide enough, my laugh isn't loud enough, and I am not proud enough... Of the two ppl who see me and their one and only... I'm very blessed to play that role--- &&& I pray I do it well all the days of my life.

<3 Rachelle