One & Only

If you are a certain age or hold a certain title in life you'll understand this blog without thinking twice about it... If not, read it again in a few years and you will. People take on certain roles in our lives, friend-mother-sibling-ect... These very roles tell u alot abt who we are inside... And believe it or not tend to shape how we see the world around us.
I enjoy roles, I love wing a friend and daughter, and above all a mother. I must admit though, I've allowed roles of ppl around me to shape too many days in the past. I've been hurt by loss which made me scared to love, misguided by ppl's inability to be trusted, and tested by ppl I truly thought would Always love me... And I've learned one thing--- my love is defined by me and me only. No one can hurt me bad enough to deter the way I love the person who deserves me, no one can damage the relations I have with ppl who worm for my trust, and no one can say they had anything to do with stopping me from reaching my destiny... Which is to obtain and maintain a family that has been thru it all and still has meals on Sundays! Me Shuga & her father- I'm determined.
I can't stress it enough, the tests of life, the walk, the jog, the fast pace, then the cool down... The moment where you ponder on your actions and wonder what would have/ could have been different if you would have said this/ done that... What if? There is no ro for what if, and if there is you aren't thinking hard enough, loving hard enough... Bc if you are those moments don't get away that easy. You appreciate them enough to recognize them and STOP before losing it. Blessed; I was so blessed... But to know a love and lose a love makes you NEED that love... So to know there was only one like it--- heartbreaking. I wanna be that love to my family, my friends, above all my daughter... That's my role- what's yours? Be your kids one and only, be the one and only... Love hard, try hard, work hard, bc life is hard... And I've known alot of ppl, alot of faces, been alot of places... But we all have something in common... The ability to be someone's ONE AND ONLY.
Ppl who know me know I don't smile for much, not much exited me, and I'm pretty uptight... I'm a "work in progress"... But nothing could ever express how being a wife and mother make me feel on a daily basis. My smile isn't wide enough, my laugh isn't loud enough, and I am not proud enough... Of the two ppl who see me and their one and only... I'm very blessed to play that role--- &&& I pray I do it well all the days of my life.

<3 Rachelle

Thank You God... I haven't said it enough!

So today I'm sitting in a class with about 15 peers... and something took over my mind, made my stomach turn honestly. I look around me and see people who have been working for our company for 25-30 years... and I'M on the side of them, interacting with them, learning with them, and working with them. What they have done in 20 years I have been able to do in 5 (work related), what a blessing. At that moment I became really humble... thinking to myself "Really Rachelle... why do you not realize how truly blessed you are. How often do you thank God for your career?"My career, your talents, your motivation... all given to me by Him... and I don't thank Him often enough.

I've learned over time that being an over acheiver has it's good and bad... for one you work your tail off, constantly, to get where you want to be, then when you get there you decide you want to be elsewhere you start busting tail to get somewhere else... and at the end of the day you are rewarded with self satisfaction, the position you want, maybe even the salary you want... but the cost is lots of stress, hard work, time away from your family, ect. The problem comes when you and I fail realize who has given us these blessings,we think they are simply a result of our hard work right? Wrong... God alone.... has blessed me/you in my/your career and my/your heart will be empty regardless of how far we/I move up without acknowledging where it all comes from. So when I looked around me and saw people twice my age I had to feel pretty rediculous that I haven't recenently "thanked Him" for my career and opportunities and that I've actually complained about working so hard at times. At 27 years old I'm taking college courses, almost have a Bachlors degree, I work for a very reputable company, I'm an Assistant Manager of a very successful branch, working toward being a manager, and I work with some amazing people who show me, teach me, believe in me, guide me, and above all know my potential.
I haven't sat back in a while and actually thanked God for my opportunities, my job, for the talent He's given me, for my mentors, for my family support, for my position, and for my career. I tend to take credit for it because I work hard and acheive things... but really it all comes from Him. It is only through Him that I am where I am, can get where I want to be... my hard work must not be done in honor of money or pride or self satisfaction.... but in honor of Him. I need to be thankful EVERYDAY for this. The Glory is His, not mine, for without Him I'm just a flawed person with a title. Ephesians 6:6 says it all... Work hard, but not just to please your masters when they are watching.  As slaves of Christ, do the will of God with all your heart. Work with  enthusiasm, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for  people.Fact: all credit and honor go to God and God alone. Thank Him, over and over again. Apologize for taking credit, strive to serve Him, and turn to Him in your times of needs, in tough decisions, in career moves, in everything--- the answer lies in Him. All success, hard work, all pay checks, all promotions, mean absolutley nothing if we don't aknowledge the source of it all... God.  In closing, You true "promotion", the biggest of all, comes when you go from visiting Christ occassionally in times of need to leaning on Him in every aspect of your life (including your pareer) and embracing His truth and mercy.... You are promoted from a person-- a hard worker with a title, to a man/woman of God with a purpose (to serve) .Have a Blessed Night! Rachelle